There is an abundance of sorrow on this small Earth, of that we might all agree, but there is also, at least here in northern Vermont, the ability to find joy quite easily in May. In the buds and flowers and leaves and warming temps and that fabulous blue sky hovering like sapphires above each and everyone. I am not ignoring the staggering horrors dropping like thick fog, but I am asking that mess to push aside for this day to feel a joy so big it overpowers. This week joy seems to be what lots of people reminded me to feel too: an unfiltered, possibly even a radical joy.
Since forever I have overheard colleagues chatting about their sunrise hikes. Most of October I thought I’d join them, and even suggested a few mornings that might be possible. But the thought of racing to work afterwards, in all that sweat and dirt, and still command a room of teens with confidence, halted me. This morning, an in-service teacher-only day, the week after the time change, plus our unseasonably mild weather, yeah, because of all of that, today the Elmore Mountain hike happened. Started with headlamps under a starry sky but as dawn does, she came fast with tangerine and pink to overcome the black. We enthusiastically tried to make it to the lookout before the sun.
No, you can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want…
There are days, or maybe even more so the nights, when I really want to go places. You know that feeling, don’t you? I don’t mean like hop on the Trans-Siberian Railroad (which I do really do want to do someday) but just the simple stuff that we all put on hold since COVID. Like when you hit your favorite restaurant where everyone knows you by name, then enjoy a nightcap at the pretty bar with that generous pour… Or a whole day of shopping, popping in and out of whatever store you fancy and then head to a movie with your sweetie… Or your friend calls out of the blue for an impromptu get-together at that amazing croissant bakery… All or any of those used to be so simple and now are halting logistical challenges. Yes, I am dreaming pre-COVID, when life was simply about doing it all. No questions asked. Crazy but after over a year of minimalist socializing and not doing, I now wonder what it is that we want that we can still have? Or have we all adapted into a different self? What would you say yes to today? What is it that you want?