As we slide past that million deaths staring us down even deeper like a heavy weight, Covid death, death in the Ukraine, queer murders and weaponized terror all pale to what clearly is the oppressive fate of citizens like you and I Under His Eye. As I sit writing in my place I wonder how is it going at your place? Lately, I can keep it together as long as a few activities happen on the daily. The musts of my survival are essential and all so simple. At least this is my vantage. The list begins with the outdoors.
Since forever I have overheard colleagues chatting about their sunrise hikes. Most of October I thought I’d join them, and even suggested a few mornings that might be possible. But the thought of racing to work afterwards, in all that sweat and dirt, and still command a room of teens with confidence, halted me. This morning, an in-service teacher-only day, the week after the time change, plus our unseasonably mild weather, yeah, because of all of that, today the Elmore Mountain hike happened. Started with headlamps under a starry sky but as dawn does, she came fast with tangerine and pink to overcome the black. We enthusiastically tried to make it to the lookout before the sun.
No, you can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want…
There are days, or maybe even more so the nights, when I really want to go places. You know that feeling, don’t you? I don’t mean like hop on the Trans-Siberian Railroad (which I do really do want to do someday) but just the simple stuff that we all put on hold since COVID. Like when you hit your favorite restaurant where everyone knows you by name, then enjoy a nightcap at the pretty bar with that generous pour… Or a whole day of shopping, popping in and out of whatever store you fancy and then head to a movie with your sweetie… Or your friend calls out of the blue for an impromptu get-together at that amazing croissant bakery… All or any of those used to be so simple and now are halting logistical challenges. Yes, I am dreaming pre-COVID, when life was simply about doing it all. No questions asked. Crazy but after over a year of minimalist socializing and not doing, I now wonder what it is that we want that we can still have? Or have we all adapted into a different self? What would you say yes to today? What is it that you want?