Novels, lakes and bikes

The return to school is a steep climb, but thankfully is one that I have learned to traverse with more surety through the years. Still, the ascent is formative. The piles of novels an English teacher needs to have at her disposal is a big one, and in most cases, there are often several piles due to teaching several courses. Most are, of course, old favorites by this point in my career, but I read them again. Rereading, I love how lines hit me anew. How different images stand for something I just lived through. How the makeup of the class veers into a whole new vein of thought than previously.

Books were very important to my father, and I was reminded of that this week when my brother sent me a list of titles my father recommended to him. I recalled most of the list he handed me. Anything by Jane Austen, he wrote. Both Emily and Charlotte Bronte he insisted. Everything Dickens. He adored George Eliot and reminded me that was a pseudonym for Mary Ann Evans. You must read the Russians, start with Tolstoy. And yes, of course Flaubert’s Madame Bovary. He included Sigrid Undset’s epic work Kristin Lavransdatter. I read everything while pregnant and nursing, which lasted seemingly for a decade. These days I nudge my students up the same laborious hill of classics, offering historic context with all the excitement I can muster. Making readers these days is more formidable than summiting Everest but perhaps equally rewarding to those who make it there.

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Family Matters, always

Ever since Father’s Day I have been thinking about the standard in which we measure parents. The bar is an interestingly high one if you ask me. There are fictional terms applied to both mother and father and I can’t fathom who could live up to those heights. As much as we recognize ourselves to be individuals, much of our own parenting mimics those who raised us; generational gaffes or successes mirror back and forward endlessly. I always consider myself lucky in that my parents lived a long life, spent many of their days loving me, and shared their passion for art, music and enjoying the outdoors with their children. But beyond those gifts, they peopled my life with more family than one can count, and now that they are both gone, I am extraordinarily grateful to slip into any one of those extended family photos surrounded by cousins. After 15 hug-less months this June gathering felt like a dreamy step into a future impossible to consider pre-vaccine. Surrounding the 96 year old matriarch, who not only endured her confinement but did so with grit and humor, made our time together lakeside pure heaven.

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Water baby

From the get-go I took to water. There was no stopping me, and no one around who would. Both my parents were avid swimmers, no, that’s not near close enough, they were water nymphs. If you look carefully at the photo below, you can see a head bobbing way out. probably their’s. Those heads called to me so I did whatever needed to propel myself out beyond the buoys. Water baby to water girl to water lover to nymph I haven’t stopped my love of swimming. As I move closer to my big birthday this weekend, my love of swimming is the best metaphor I have to head straight into the unknown waters.

For whatever you lose
(like a you or a me)
It’s always ourselves we find
in the sea.
                                 e.e. cummings

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